Easter 2008

This Easter has been a quite one of sorts.......Of course the kids awoke to find the Easter bunny had visited.....there were filled baskets and had left some eggs outside......the kids had to hurry because it was snowing and sleeting!!! Eric got a fire started in the fireplace.....we decided against making the drive to St. Louis due to the weather.....

I went onto the Swedenborg Community and read a lovely sermon and got to listen to "Morning Has Broken"....boy did that bring back memories of growing up in Fryeburg! I had a few more "missing my Mom" moments throughout the day as well......somehow Easter always reminds me of her. I sometimes wonder if I'm the only one who holds her memory close....I have done some searching today on the internet of the Church as a whole....I've read some great stuff my Rev Sage and Dr George Dole.....but became rather hurt.....where I will find links and lists of "our churches....they all leave out "The Church of The Open Word and Garden Chapel"http://www.openwordchurch.org.

This was a church my mother loved....she put her heart and soul and life into the gardens.....now there is a beautiful memorial that my brother designed......but I fear people have forgotten......I know the church is struggling financially.....it no longers employs a full time minister.....but there is still life left.....one of my mothers favorite books was The Secret Garden ( for obvious reasons) about a little girl who is sent away to her Uncles mansion and stumbles accross a "secret" garden.....she thought that garden had died.....but a dear friend showed her that it was still alive.....isn't that similar to the St Louis Church? Jesus said " where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst...."

I wish we had made the drive this morning to hear my Father preach......I know his sermon would have been good.....I hope and pray for continued life in the church......My Mother's memorial says...."Come sit with me and meditate on God's Word"...........I need to go there more often.............

Rainy Tuesday!

It's a rainy, rainy Tuesday! I have a few minutes to my self......Eric is down at the other house getting some loose ends tied up....kids are at school. Although I have several errands to run, I actually have a few minutes to breathe....normally I would take this time to go out for a long run.....but due to the thunderstorm.....I think I'll pass....I normally don't mind running in the ran...but I'm not fond of thunder and lightning!

The house is coming together great! I think both of the kids are also getting situated at school and making the transition.....I do believe in the long run they both will benefit! I'm loving a shorter drive to and from work...yeah.... especially with the price of gas going up and up and up!

I mostly love just looking out the windows at our hill....watching the kids play at the bottom and just be kids.....there is nothing more I could want in life then the happiness of my precious angels! I think they are both doing ok....this morning as I was helping Heather pick out clothes...(which thanks to Eric's Mom she has yet to wear the same outfit more then once to school!) She told me how her teacher liked the way she dressed and exclaimed"Mom....I am just all about fashion....you know how things that don't necessarily match....I make them match....that's FASHION" my reponse? "my dear if you say so........I will not argue!"

Then Jonathon was picking out his clothes...which for the most part were still in the dryer....awaiting to be folded and put up...but who has time in this house...so there were probably 2 or maybe 3 loads......anyway he left them piled on to of the dryerafter retrieving his clothes for the day. Well Eric comes down and asked why he left them there instead of putting them back in..... of course being a "GOOD MOM" I had to defend my son!....didn't work....Later in the car at the bus stop, Jonathon tells me....."Mom, you know you didn't have to defend me.....I was just being lazy!" What a kid!!

1ST SOCCER GAME...AND THE WORK CONTINUES

Well Jonathon finally had his 1st soccer game today.....it was a little chilly....but being his team was short one player the 1st half, he did plenty of running!!! Jonathon scored the only goal his team got....they ended up tying 1 to 1....I thought he did very well considering he has only had 2 practices and he hasn't played soccer in over 2 years!

I have added a couple pictures of the outside of our house and the upstairs bedroom....Eric worked very hard painting the panelling and trying to make it liveable.....I'm estatic with the way the house has come together....we still have a lot to do, but I'm sure by the time we are done....it will be time to start over again!! Isn't that how it usually works?

Jonathon has another soccer game on Tuesday......Heather's 1st game is a week from Tuesday....I should be able to make bnoth of those games which is always a good thing!

just some thoughts...12 years

Heather and Jonathon at Mom's Memorial
Heather being herself!!


>Well today is the day after March 8.....12 years since my Mother passed away.....Heather ran up to me when I arrived home from work yesterday and said "Mom I know what today is....it's the anniversary of when your Mom passed out!" I had to laugh and gently explained that she passed away.

My Mother's passing still has been the single most defining point in my life. I remember the obituary my Father had in the paper...."Death is not an end...rather an opportunity to fulfill a life of higher usefulness". While at the time I could understand that on an intellectual level (head)...I couldn't feel it in my heart.

Now it's been 12 years....Jonathon is now 12...on the verge of being a teenager. Heather Carole was born and is now 8....and she reminds me of my Mother in so many ways......little gestures, her need to be prim and proper.....and her zest for life in general.

At first I really didn't know how to function and make decisions without her. I was angry that she wouldn't be there to help me as a new Mother myself...Now 12 years later, I know she is ALWAYSwith me. I have learned to trust myself and be my own person....I see her in both my children and I am so blessed.

Sometimes I still get teary eyed....but mostly I just remeber how fortunate I was to have her as my Mother......then I look at my own children and see her in them!

new home

Here are a few pictures of our new home! As you can see we are still in boxes.....slowly but surely we are getting unpacked and settled in..... The kids both have there 1st soccer practice tomorrow....they can't wait.

Eric has been busy painting over the awful pannelling in the bedroom and in the utilty room and it looks WONDERFUL. I will add more pictures as we get more done....can't wait to show some outside pictures as well.